Gypsy– A nomadic or free-spirited person.
For as long as I can remember I’ve identified myself as a “Gypsy at heart!” I craved adventure, the unknown, creating my own path, and making my own rules. Fast forward to today, a full- time student, wife, mother of three (with twins!) and many other responsibilities in my life, things have leveled out and become “safe.”
Though I love the idea of stability and sustainability in one’s life, the aspect of myself I respect most, is that of freedom. I see my glass as half full when I want nothing more than for that glass to overflow. This past year especially, I’ve been very upset at where life is.
A month ago, I stumbled across an Instagram page of a person who was doing exactly what I wanted to be doing. Writing, traveling, and enjoying the company of their loved ones on their own terms. I was amazed. How could this be?
Then it hit me…
I was calling myself one thing, but being someone completely different. I was wanting to live freely and make my own schedule, but doing things exactly like everyone else because it was the “safe way” to live. All the while, feeling so empty inside. No longer. I vowed to create my own way.
Which brings me to today; Being brave and living my truth. I have just three short months of school left, and the hope of a promise I made myself: Remember to enjoy the journey. Because of this, I’m no longer interested in being the gypsy girl I once knew and loved. I’m evolving into the gypsy mama and that’s okay. My life won’t look the way I once thought it would.
It’s something even more beautiful.
It’s a work in program, it’s not going to happen overnight but I refuse to settle. My children deserve to see their mother living out her dream! I’m going back to my passion and risking it all to be happy.
Writing is my therapy, it’s my expression, it’s my art. This will be the year I focus on molding into the person I can be proud of for myself. It will be messy, it will be uncomfortable, but it will also be freeing, cathartic, and real. I promise to put my happiness first and never give up on what I want in life. Being a mother and wife doesn’t mean settling, it means working harder for the things I am determined to have and the life I am destined to live. So I hope this blog finds someone out there and you enjoy the posts to come! Thanks for taking this journey with me.
-Gypsy Mama at Heart